My Beloved, I find you to be beautiful

There is a song by gateway worship called "Running" and the lyrics are beautiful. Youtube it if your intersted it...

But verse one says the following.
"I hear the voice
The voice of the One I love
He's calling my name
I hear the voice
The voice of the One I love
He's calling my name
He's saying
Come up higher
And hear the angels sing
Come up higher My beloved
Come up higher
And leave this world behind
I find you to be beautiful"

There are a lot of things this song says that speak to me but particularly in this verse where it indicates that the Father is calling us "beloved" and saying "I find you to be beautiful" show me things that I have never really considered before. I know that God loves me, and I know that the word says that I am to seek a husband who loves me like Christ loves the church. When I think about that phrase I think about a sacrificial love. A love that  it would seem only a father can give but these words of beloved and beautiful are tender words that signify more than the boundaries of a parental love or service but also a deep love and devotion that marriages are really built from and on.

As I have been praying for God to show up it's just incredible that He chooses to show me that not only will He use me, not only will He allow me to encourage others, but really thinking about what it means if God sees me as his beloved. If He sees me as beautiful. It's incredible.


As a woman in particular I hope to one day meet a nice man who loves God more than He will ever love me and who will treat me like a treasure. Who will find me beautiful, who will call me his beloved.  Gives me a whole new meaning to "like Christ loves the Church" as perhaps this is not only a sacrificial love. Perhaps its also a deep rooted love of covenant and devotion that is typically associated with marriage. The more I think about it the more I see it and wonder how I could have missed it all these years. 


Tonight at the Drive we were told about Immanuel- God with us and asked to depict what we thought that meant, what that means to us and what we want Immanuel to bring us.  It was an incredible message and I learned more about my answers to the questions when I left than when I was there.  A love I knew about but not in Gods context and in a sense a complete love.


*I thought God being with us meant faithfulness. He is faithful to provide, to comfort to love to encourage. But more than that, I now see He is loving in an incredible perfect way that leaves no other need or desire.


*I thought that to me that meant my life could have joy even when it wasn't happy all the time as happiness comes from circumstances but joy comes from the Lord. But what I now see from when I left is that it also gives me peace and comfort that I knew He promised to provide but never saw in this way-- in this area.


I had nothing to put for what I wanted from Immanuel except that I wanted Him to continue to show up. What I didn't know was that I needed to learn more about His love which ironically I have been telling all kinds of people about like crazy the last couple days not because I'm trying to but because it just comes out. A love so deep that perhaps we can always learn more. So captivating that you can't help but talk about it.


Isn't it so perfect that He doesn't just give us what we want but gives us what we truly need. Incredible !!! 

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So as you all continue to pray-- and I continue to pray-- I pray that his presence show you that you are not only his child... but that He finds you beautiful and that you are his beloved. So when we say that His love is the one true love we might know that it truly is. And knowing that makes Him alone not only enough to make you content-- but perhaps it can also satisfy you in your deepest needs. That He truly can be everything your heart desires.  It's captivating to me to know that my savior --the author of beauty could find me beautiful despite all my shortcomings. That He sees me as His beloved and that is more than satisfying for me!