I know nothing of Calvary love

Hello!
I wanted to write to you today about a text that has been challenge my heart. It's by Amy Carmichael and is called "Calvary love." which can be found here: http://holytrinitynewrochelle.org/yourti96592.html

If you go and read it you will see some piercing thoughts but I wanted to write about a few of them.
A few days post celebrating the birth of our savior, I find myself seeing that the life that He lived was perfect which is something to marvel at for sure. But more importantly the death He endured  and resurrection that He experienced mark my life and my soul, and yet Ms. Carmichael's writing is still challenging. When she says "If I covet any place on earth but the dust at the foot of the Cross, then I know nothing of Calvary love."- How many times do I covet so many other places. While all her statements are challenging this one rocks me the most.  How much do I crave the kisses from my puppy, or wait in anticipation for my husband to return home thinking that all is not right with the world until we are snuggled on the couch? And yet, complacency takes this feeling from me to crave my savior. When I started this blog I was praying for God's presence to appear in my life in a way that it never had. More than a year has passed and I will tell you God has a stronger presence in my life now than He ever did, but yet though I am closer than I ever have been the urgency is still something I chase.

And yet the stories that muddle the news about Russians banning American adoptions, and Fiscal cliffs and people unwilling to compromise and I find myself asking God to make himself known to our world, and it's almost as though He says " I told you to make me known." I'm there I am taken back and knowing that the only place I need to be is at the foot of the cross, and yet He said "Therefore go and make disciples of all nations"- Matthew 28:19 and yet here I am with my puppy curled up next to me alone in my apartment making a disciple out of no one. And when I ask myself what gifts has God given me, how I can share Him, I'm reminded of this blog, and that when I view the statistics of it that people all over the world have viewed it. People in countries I have been never been to have read my writing, and I wonder... could I make disciples through a blog?

I don't know.

But it's worth a try.

My word for 2012 was discipleship and I saw God use me to do that so much in this year. To lead a bible study, to start a woman's ministry, to encourage friends, to love strangers, and to bring people closer to Him. So now the question is, what does He have for me in 2013. Better yet, what does He have left of me to do in 2012.

Friends I am praying for you, and if there is anything I can be in prayer about please share that with me.  My hope and prayer is to write to you more so that I can share more about His love. Tomorrow isn't promised. let's do what we can to make disciples in these last few days and let's remember that despite the news, God will never leave or forsake us. Let's covet the foot of the cross together so that we can really see what Calvary Love can change.

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