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Thursday, September 10, 2015

Loved By God


Friends,
Do you know that you are loved? Can you open your mind to the possibility that the God of the universe, the one who created everything loves you? I had the privilege of seeing Sister Miriam James Heidland, S.O.L.T speak at a Women's Conference a few weeks ago.  Honestly, she shared a heart and love for God that was beautiful. She reminded me of something that perhaps is easy to forget at times: God loves us. You see His love isn't generalized. He does just love "everyone" as a whole but not specifically. His love is tender, it's personal, it's unique for each and every person on earth and that's amazing. He loves because that is His nature: God is Love.  Couple that with being all knowing and for me these truths are amazing. He patiently listens to each of us as we share our needs, whether as a silent whisper of the heart or shouts at heaven.   Such truth, if you really stop and think about it, can seem impossible. Someone who loves you so greatly, knowing everything about you does exist.

There are times in my life I've felt far from that kind of love, and if I'm honest the times I felt farthest are because I moved myself. I set up definitions in my mind as to when God could love me or not based on when I felt lovable or lovely. I thought I was lovely and lovable if I could achieve, or perform. When I had no "big" sins then I was lovable, or so I thought. My view of love was based in my experience of love taught to me, but my view was broken. His love has never failed me.

I've learned that its not about big sins or little sins --I'm sinful. period. I'm not worthy but He loves me in a perfect and unwavering way. He cares for me when I don't care for myself, He loves me when I fail to perform, His mercy is amazing. He calls me beloved. He calls me beautiful.  He calls me blessed. He calls me to Him so tenderly and reminds my heart that there is no place outside of Him that I can be loved like that. My husband gives me a beautiful demonstration to help me understand how big this love is with how selflessly He loves me. It helps but is only a glimmer of the truth of what I'm describing.

Sister Miriam and I 
Sister Miriam shared parts of her story in which she dealt with life circumstances that affected her ability to see love as God loves. I won't share her story, because it's not mine it's hers, but thankfully she's shared it in her book: Loved As I Am. I read it and honestly I'll tell you it's great. It's a beautiful story where she shares honestly about the parts of her life that were challenging where she didn't feel lovely and used all sorts of things to fill the gap. She had circumstances that produced challenges and she honestly shared the struggles and the triumphs. She shares how Our Lord fought for her when she didn't feel loved and He loved her just as she was. It's His love that makes her beautiful, and friends I'll tell you: she's gorgeous. The joy and love that overflows her heart is inspiring and if you ever get a chance to listen to her I recommend it.  The book covers the human person and God's love. Through small in size, it delivers a big dose of truth broken down into small bite size pieces.  She does that when she speaks as well. She's very eloquent and yet is able to explain complex things simply. She shows a true knowledge that she conveys well.  She is inspiring. She reminds you that no matter your problem, addiction, hang up or break down that there is hope.  She reminds us we can all be holy. No matter how far you stray God will never cease to welcome you with open arms.   She proclaimed at the conference I went to "I'm a broken lady who's seriously loved by God." She's tasted and seen that the Lord is good and invites you to do the same. She told a room full of women "God is always after your heart" and she's absolutely right. It's nice to hear it. To be reminded. He's pursuing me all the time and it's lovely to know that.  Friends. He's pursing you too.


Friends I know that God loves you. Remember as Pope Saint John Paul II said " We are not the sum of our weaknesses and failure; we are the sum of the Fathers love for us. " As I type those words it speaks volumes to my heart in a week that I've had weaknesses and failures galore. I know it's God teaching me, growing me and leading me to grow in humility and trust in Him. I am so thankful for His love even on my worst days and it's knowing He loves me that makes everything else so amazing.  You remember friend. God loves you more than you could ever imagine. You are His beloved. <3


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You can follow Sister Miriam on Twitter @onegroovynun  and there are several youtube videos where you can listen to her.
For my conversion story click here 

Sunday, June 14, 2015

Anyone Who Fails To Go Forward Begins To Go Back


I've found myself immersed in books. From St. Teresa of Avila to C.S. Lewis. From Fulton Sheen to G.K. Chesterton. The beauty in each of the books I've read recently has been incredible and the truth astounds me. In each there is a calling to purse God stronger, to know Him more, to be closer to Jesus and be more like Him.

As I finished Interior Castles by St. Teresa of Avila yesterday I was struck by something she wrote.

"I repeat that if you have this view you must not build upon foundations of prayer and contemplation alone, for, unless you strive after virtues and practice them, you will never grow to be more than dwarfs. God grant that nothing worse than this may happen- for as you know, anyone who fails to go forward begins to go back, and love, I believe , can never be content to stay for long where it is." p234.

While she wrote these words, this sentiment is one of I've seen come to a head in both Catholic and Protestant Circles. The need for more. The need for pursuit. The idea that we can not be stagnant.  I've read books on both sides of the theological realm which call for this same idea. Just to name a few as this is by no means an exhaustive list:

Radical by David Platt 
The Explicit Gospel by Matt Chandler 
Not A Fan by Kyle Idelman
Crazy Love by Francis Chan 
In A Pit With A Lion On A Snowy Day by Mark Batterson 
Anything by Jennie Allen
Desiring God by John Piper
Chasing Francis by Ian Cron 
Mere Christianity by C.S. Lewis
Introduction To The Devout Life by St. Francis De Sales
Interior Castles by St. Teresa of Avila 
Orthodoxy by G.K. Chesterton 
He Leadeth Me by Walter Ciszek 
The Joy of the Gospel by Pope Francis

They all disagree on dogmas and doctrine but all scream to run with everything you have after God. They push you to not just know Him but to serve Him. The above authors are in all sorts of churches from Calvinist to Catholic and everything in between and yet they all agree that there is more than just one prayer to be said or a box to be checked. They push and plead with the reader to move the heart and the feet in the direction of forward because again "anyone who fails to go forward begins to go back." 

How much would we believe it if a doctor shared the need to move forward as a statement about his practice of medicine. If he failed to continue to go forward in studying and research, he might fall behind the standard of care as it is always evolving. One might also suggest that he may forget some of the knowledge he does not use quite as often. Thus for all medical professionals CMEs (Continued Medical Education) is required. You are not meant to keep the knowledge you graduate with and not continue to grow and review. If you fail to complete the CMEs required they will not renew your license. So while a job in the medical field would require the same: the need to build upon foundations and practice to move forward, failure to do so would in fact move back. 

Our faith is much more vast than the field of medicine, much more intricate that the study of the human body requires the same. How can it be bigger? Because faith encompasses all that there is in the natural and supernatural world. So while science and medicine are classifications of the natural world, we believe many things that fall outside of that realm in the supernatural world. With over 2000 years of history, over 30,000 denominations of just the Christian Faith and many other religions and cultures to learn about the amount of information is great. Yet, the Christian Faith can be understood in as simple of a manor as the Creed and yet we are called to continue to learn and grow. While no one is required CMEs for the faith, God calls us to run after Him more today than yesterday. More each day. 

The sentiment in our modern world though is not to think, not to ask and not to grow on a specific path. As Chesterton wrote "They say that choice is itself the divine thing."  The idea we can choose anything and everything and sentiments that there is not really truth, just relativism has made a world of those afraid to think, afraid to purse, afraid to take a stand. Chesterton explains that this comes from a new definition of humility. "The old humility was a spur that prevented a man from stopping; not a nail in his boot that prevented him from going on. For the old humility made a man doubtful about his efforts, which might make him work harder. But the new humility makes a man doubtful about his aims, which will make him stop working all together."  I saw this "new humility" as my husband and I searched for answers and for truth. We were told not to "think so much." "Don't take it so seriously." If the faith impacts all that we are and all that we do shouldn't we think about it? Shouldn't we ask questions and run forward? 
Friends don't buy the new humility of the world. Ask questions. Look for answers. Pray, practice and grow. Don't keep drinking the same milk friends. Try meat. 

<3
Anita 

Tuesday, January 20, 2015

The year of Love

For the last several years I've prayed for a word of the year. It's not a limit on God to teach me one thing but a challenge for me to see what He is teaching me in one area. I pick an area I need to grow in,  He has taught me so much each time I've done this. I could sum up what He taught me in a million words as He is so faithful to grow us if we ask Him too... but in 2014 I wanted to grow in Love. 

It's not that I didn't love, or I didn't want to love. It's that I knew that so much of my heart wasn't filled with a love that I wanted it to be filled with, a love like Christ. 

In 2014 God challenged what I thought love was. 

He challenged me to love my patients in a radical way. To love them the way Christ would, but also challenged me to see Christ in each of them so that I could see that as I serve and love my patient I am serving our Lord. This didn't hit me at once, but slowly permeated me. I found myself holding the hand of many, having them bear their souls to me, and being challenged to look past whatever they were saying and just love them. Just encourage them. At times that was challenging as not all our charitable, and at times I argued with God "are you sure you want me to say that... do that?" And yet He was faithful to reassure me. It was amazing and as I did I found that that He produced such joy in my heart. 



He challenged me to love my husband more. To trust him more and to grow in my patience. Patience doesn't come easy for me, and all sorts of circumstances have challenged me to make that harder but I consistently prayed for my heart and for my husband in 2014 and I found He did grow me so much. I know that part of this growth has been because of the physical encounter with Jesus in the Eucharist, but I will explained that more in a bit. 

He challenged me to love people that at times felt unlovable. I find it is hardest to do this with people I know well, but I know that no one is unlovable, all are God's handy work and beautiful even if I struggle to see the beauty. I felt convicted when I knew my heart wasn't what it should be toward a given person or situation and yet I know that that feeling of conviction was God loving me enough to grow me. Such a report is challenging but so helpful. 

He's shown me that He loves me in so many ways. It's not only in the ways where He works out something in some miraculous way, or does what I want, but sometimes putting me somewhere challenging is His way of loving me to grow my faith, and help me grow my dependence on Him. I never wanted to look at it that way because it seemed difficult.

Encountering Jesus in the Eucharist has been amazing. Seeing Him love me to sacrifice His life for me, and then loves me enough to never leave me is an incredible miracle that is the ultimate example of love. I was confirmed in 2014 and got to partake for the first time. It's amazing and definitely a huge testament of love. I'm so thankful for it.

For 2015 I'm letting God continue to teach me and help me to TRANSCEND or : Go beyond the limits. Beyond the limits of what I think I know or can do, and beyond the barriers that I've set for myself. 

What is your word of the year friends?
<3
Anita

Sunday, December 21, 2014

Wanting The Shepherd This Christmas Season


In the hectic parking lots and the long lines, in the displays that have been disorganized by customers, and the empty shelves I found myself humming to myself Psalm 23. "The Lord is my shepherd I shall not want." I sang it to myself a few times as I walked around Hobby Lobby looking for Christmas cards and the words began to weigh on my heart. All around me were people collecting items for the wants of others. Even I had so many things in the store that I envisioned would add character to my new home.

Again.
The Lord is my shepherd I shall not want. 

It hit me that a season that is all about the spotless lamb who has come to shepherd the world we celebrate Jesus in the season but forget rest of the line, yet if I asked most Christians to finish "The Lord is my Shepherd" most would know the words following but how often to we gloss over them to recite how He leads us near still waters and to righteousness." How often to we let our hearts sit on those words "I shall not want."

It's something to pray about that we would be fully satisfied in Him.



What are the things you want? Are you putting them before the Shepherd? Would you love Him even if He didn't give you what you want? Perhaps sometimes that's how He leads us to still water and righteousness. 

I have so many things to be thankful for. 
My wonderful husband.
A great new church.
Our beautiful home. 
Our sweetie Gracie Lou who is more human than any dog I've ever met. 
Wonderful friends.
Work in a pro-life office.
and many more things...

Yet I find my heart attached to my wants at times and sometimes I feel my heart so attached to wants that I mistakenly view them as needs or rights. God has shown me every good and perfect gift is from Him and He gives me desires in my heart but only when I delight myself in Him. He has given me so much grace and blessed me in so many ways. It's amazing truly what He has done just in 2014 alone and I'll be sure to make a post capturing all of that very soon. 

Friends this season let's worship Him. Let's step away from the wants and let Him be our shepherd. Let's put down our expectations if the perfect thing is behind the wrapping paper and in the card. Let's not worry if the gathering goes perfectly or the house is Pinterest perfect. Let's simply love Him, take a deep breath and enjoy what we have. 

let's grow in contentment this Christmas season.

God bless you and keep you and let His face shine upon you. 
Let's delight in Him. <3 

Sunday, November 9, 2014

Hooking-Up The Confused With The Truth

In our society marriage is no longer viewed as a gift, it's cheapened by our world in so many ways. From the way marriages are thrown away, to the prevalence of our "hook-up culture" to the society that tears apart the family in a way that is heart breaking, we having a world that is confused, and many of them know it is confusing.

In a recent article I read from my Facebook news feed on 10 of the Most Confusing Things Happening In Today's Hook-Up Culture that you can read here. I was struck by the article and it's opening. Paul Hudson, the writer behind this article begins with this:

"I can’t say that I’m for or against our generation’s hook-up culture. I like the idea of people being sexually open and free, but at the same time, I feel that a lot of people sleep around to bury other issues they may be having in their lives.
What it all leads to is a whole lot of confusion."
I don't know Mr. Hudson, but I do know that he is right on his statement that our culture leads to a lot of confusion. Confusion on what love is, confusion on what marriage should look like, confusion on the value of family, confusion on what is healthy or true. It amazed me that Mr. Hudson pointed out what so many of us know "a lot of people sleep around to bury other issues they may be having in their lives." There is so much truth and weight in this and it isn't really given much exploration. He continues to try and "clear things up" when in reality he displays how confused we really are, and offers no real solutions. 

He starts with the understanding that we can't even be sure how to define if an interaction is a date or not and ends with that no one wants to be the first to say I love you. There 8 other points in the middle that tell readers it's okay to just have sex, no need to have dinner first if all you want it instant gratification, and yet reminds us that most millennials have slept with a large number of people due to his other points. I'll leave the white coat I wear off for this post but just a few quick facts:
(HPV is now the number 1 cause of throat cancer, and an STD you get from touching anyone between their belly button and their knees. It's not just from intercourse and condoms won't protect you. OK I'll stop there because that should be enough to get you to think twice before getting intimate from a physical health stand point). 

What Hudson didn't share was some of the side effects to this hook up culture. He didn't go over the STDs, the pregnancies that end up as abortions, the depression and anxiety that these women end up with or the lies that our society is told that it's safe sex as long as you use birth control/condoms. While I already let the cat out of the bag on condoms not protecting against HPV, I'll share this other nugget: Birth-control pills interfere with a woman’s immune system, making her more likely to contract certain STDs.  Your average person will then think I'm asking you to become a cloistered nun, and while I think Nuns are beautiful for their devotion I'll tell you I agree with Hudson in that we need to be open and free about sex, but not in the way he explains.

Freedom does not look like hiding, freedom doesn't lead to destruction and disease, freedom doesn't have to be made "safe." Freedom is just as he said: open. True freedom is liberating and beautiful. Freedom isn't restricted. The sex that our culture has isn't free at all despite their effort to pursue "no-strings-attached" love making there are always strings when you share a disease with your one night stand. Furthermore, when you have intimacy with someone you are uniting your body with theirs, it's as much a physical act as a spiritual experience and such a perfect and beautiful gift is only free in the security of marriage. That's not popular but that's the truth. I don't have to protect myself from my husband. I love him freely and openly without confusion or consequence.

What marks so much about the article and our society is point number 10:

10. No one wants to be the first person to say “I love you.”

Honestly, if you’re lucky enough to find someone you love, especially while in the midst of our current hook-up culture, then you should let them know as soon as you think they would like hearing it.
Sure, it could scare them a bit — so I don’t recommend necessarily rushing it — but when you feel that the time is right, find some courage and tell them.
Hell, scream it off the rooftops if you have to. Remember, if you don’t say it, it’s likely that the next guy will. There are so many of us willing to “date” and “hook up” that when you miss your opportunity, you may not get another one.
We are encouraged in this to share if we love someone when we "think they would like hearing it." Yes that sounds free and open. We are then told it might scare them? ...Free? Open? Scary? One of these does not fit with the other. We apparently also need to not rush it (yet we are told in points 2 and 6 that there really is not an acceptable time frame before having sex (3 hours apparently is ok) and not to worry about going to dinner if all we want is sex.  Essentially society says it is ok to get naked but don't dare say any words like "I love you" because THAT is dangerous.

When did love become dangerous but sex became safe? That sounds like something out of backwards land (but then we live in a country that has places where it is illegal to feed the homeless and it's called "anti-food sharing laws." So we live in a world that thrives on flipping good to bad and bad to good.)

I won't claim that all the Christians have it right either. So many who would call themselves followers walk away from their marriages, their families, and support our culture of death all in the name of "choice." I promise the Holy Spirit does not tear apart marriages or encourage abortion. God is Love. God creates life. God is not a God of confusion.

The confusing part of all of this is our society has taken God out of relationships. They now view marriage as being between two people when it's always been between three: the husband, the wife and God. Even in the Catholic Church it's between 3, the priest doesn't marry you but you make a covenant with God. So who officiated my wedding? God.

Marriage was created by God to be a beautiful picture of Christ loving the Church and sex was a gift for marriage. Just as Christ said on the Cross "It is Consummated" in the original Greek, we too consummate our marriages through a physical and spiritual encounter. To consummate something means to bring to perfection or completion. Christ completed the passover He started in the upper room with those words fulfilling the old covenant by being the sacrificial lamb for us all and started a new covenant with His blood. He's not finished with us as many would claim in that exchange but He committed to redeem us and love us and never leave us or forsake us. Marriage is to picture that beautiful sacrificial, patient, kindness that is free and open. It's not scary its beautiful just as the Cross was beautiful.

It's become so common not only to tear apart this beauty with our actions but too many people tear it apart with words. They joke about marriage and sex even if they do view marriage in the same way I'm claiming which sends a horribly mixed message. To call your wife your "ball and chain" or to make jokes about intimacy with your wife or sex in general is to shatter the beauty that God gave us in these gifts, and shatters the picture of Christ loving His church. If you wouldn't say it about Christ loving the Church DON'T say it about your spouse or sex. Be consistent and help those who are confused. Boldly declare that marriage is a surrender to grow in holiness with your partner and that while that doesn't always mean happiness it ALWAYS means Joy if you soak your marriage and your life in the sweet blood of Jesus. With your words remember we are called to this:
"Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable - if anything is excellent or praiseworthy - think about such things." [Philippians 4:8].

I'll be completely honest and tell you I didn't know these things always. I had no idea what love was or what sex could be and I was one of those people who thought I could bury myself in a relationship to fulfill the desire I had for love and intimacy. It doesn't work. It's only when I knew that God loved me and allowed Him to show me grace that I could have any understanding of what love was, and that I could appreciate that kind of love from my husband.

Let's quit being a society that praises rushing into bed and start being honest about sex and marriage. Let's stop with the lies and telling the world that marriage is all rainbows and butterflies because it isn't it's challenging and it's that challenge that grows it into being beautiful. It's challenging for an acorn to become an oak treat but it's the process that's beautiful. Let's be honest about the blessing of waiting for marriage and the lies that are told to society about sex and birth control and marriage and hooking up. Let's pursue what is right, pure, lovely, admirable, excellent or praiseworthy rather than this confusion.

let's be clear.
let's love truly openly and freely.
Let's scream it from the room tops if we have to because if we don't share the truth the world will share the lies.
<3



Sunday, October 5, 2014

Synod on Marriage and Family: Tending the Vineyard

To begin we should discuss what a synod is: an assembly of the clergy and sometimes also the laity in a diocese or other division of a particular church. A synod is a gathering and the catholic bishops and laity are gathering in Rome.

This particular synod taking place in Rome today is part 1 of 2 that will take place in 2014 and 2015 to discuss the family and the crisis in family that has occurred. Pope Francis opened the synod with a prayer and an explanation of the expectations of the gathering. "Today the Prophet Isaiah and the Gospel employ the image of the Lord’s vineyard. The Lord’s vineyard is his “dream”, the plan which he nurtures with all his love, like a farmer who cares for his vineyard. Vines are plants which need much care! God’s “dream” is his people. He planted it and nurtured it with patient and faithful love, so that it can become a holy people, a people which brings forth abundant fruits of justice."

We see a call to follow God's dream for His people and in the new evangelization that call is for all of us who proclaim Christ to care for His vineyard. A special calling on the clergy is given to lead and guide but we are each called to be that holy people that the bishop of Rome is referring to. 

Pope Francis explained: "We too, in the synod of bishops, are called to work for the Lord’s vineyard. Synod assemblies are not meant to discuss beautiful and clever ideas, or to see who is more intelligent… They are meant to better nurture and tend the Lord’s vineyard, to help realize his dream, his loving plan for his people. In this case the Lord is asking us to care for the family, which has been from the beginning an integral part of his loving plan for humanity."

Not only are we called but we are challenged. As Francis further explained we are tempted by greed and many other things in our work to further the gospel but we must be repentant and let the Holy Spirit lead us. Francis explained "We are all sinners and can also be tempted to “take over” the vineyard, because of that greed which is always present in us human beings. God’s dream always clashes with the hypocrisy of some of his servants. We can “thwart” God’s dream if we fail to let ourselves be guided by the Holy Spirit. The Spirit gives us that wisdom which surpasses knowledge, and enables us to work generously with authentic freedom and humble creativity. 

My Synod brothers, to do a good job of nurturing and tending the vineyard, our hearts and our minds must be kept in Jesus Christ by “the peace of God which passes all understanding” (Phil 4:7). In this way our thoughts and plans will correspond to God’s dream: to form a holy people who are his own and produce the fruits of the kingdom of God."

Friends how much is this challenge also for us. How often do we thwart God by taking over and opening ourselves open to hypocrisy. I am so blessed to have a sweet friend, Jessie who was sharing just today with me how the convenience of hypocrisy is all around us and we must be strong and bold to stand up for our faith despite the consequences.  We can not be people of God and not proclaim Him with our lives and our families. We can't love Him and reject His plan for us. 

We see so much our world has let family fall apart. Talking with someone last week we learned she doesn't know one couple who has not been divorced. Reflecting on my own family I know one, but they are functionally divorced sharing separate bedrooms in their home. Circumstances happen: abuse, death, challenges, and the challenge of satan to destroy the family is prominent. With the increase of cohabitation, pre-marital sex, divorce and pornography being seen as normal and good, and "bad" being prudence and chastity we see a contradiction.  Friends, the hope of this synod is to remind us the importance of family and to receive an encouragement of our clergy and our world to support marriage and family. When you strengthen marriage, you strengthen family and when you strengthen family you strengthen the community. When the community is stronger the world is stronger. 

Friends start in your own home: your own marriage, your own family. This is step one to changing the world for the glory of God. We are called to live for Him in all that we do. 


I'm praying for you friends. Let our lives be a living offering to Him. Let's change the world and start by looking in the mirror. 

Friends let us be praying for this Synod that it will be a reminder to us and the world how important family and marriage is and what a gift these are from God. Let us be praying that the Holy Spirit will guide our families and our lives into truth and that we will be a people holy and righteous before God. 



Tuesday, September 30, 2014

Courage In Medicine

Dear Friends
From September 25-27th I went to the Catholic Medical Association Conference. It was an amazing event with 3 days of being surrounded with more than 600 providers, clergy and families discussing how to uphold the Catholic faith in the science and practice of medicine. We had some great speakers such as Cardinal Burke, Brandon Vogt,  Ashley Fernandez, Mary Jo Anderson, Bishop Noonan and Bishop Conley and Sister Mary Dreiger. There were even more than I can name, and more than that there were an abundance of wonderful people who love God and wanted to love people in the field of medicine. I wanted to recap some of the main themes of the conference.

1. Courage: Between good and evil there is no safe place to stand.

To be a christian health care provider requires courage. To be a christian requires courage. To be both requires.... LOTS of courage. So many challenges face a provider to uphold the hippocratic oath, to do no harm and protect life. So challenging it is to do this in a society that does not celebrate life, but rather treats it with carelessness. God is not looking for the best equipped. He's looking for the willing- Mary Jo Anderson. We were exhorted by Rev. Robert McTeigue to remember we are the God's servants first, providers second and the first is inextricable from the second. He encouraged endurance which he described as the stubborn and patient commitment to the greater good even in the face of the seemingly impossible. He also reminded us that courage is only possible for one who is vulnerable.   Ashley Fernandez MD, PHD pushed us to "Be the Anvil." He encourages us that the anvil helps to shape objects just as much as the hammer does but it does so through a strong unmovable force. The anvil lasts longer than the hammer and despite the pounding of the hammer provides the strength of the pound of the hammer from it's resistance. We are to be anvils in our society and hold up with strength the truth proclaiming Jesus Christ in our careers. We are to be immovable, strong and steady knowing that a dripping water hollows out stone not through force but persistence.  Finally Bishop Conoley urged us "You are called to be saints- nothing more nothing less."

"You must put on the armor of God if you are to resist on the evil day; do all that your duty requires, and hold your ground." -Ephesians 6:13

2. Conscience: Following the path of truth. 

Cardinal Burke began the conference sharing that our conscience is to lead us to what is right and true. Our hearts and our conscience need to be trained to Jesus and is a messenger for Him. Rev. McTeigue shared that our conscience needs trained so that we may formed good habits which are natural and humanizing by pursuing the cardinal virtues. There was a great deal of discussion on how America is stripping away the conscience clause to help protect those who do not want to violate their beliefs and replacing it with the mandate that we have to do what our patient feels is best for them.  We were challenged to be courageous and stand up for truth. Our fight against evil starts by looking in the mirror and conforming ourselves to study and prayer. Without true study and prayer we can not grow in faith and we can not be prepared to discuss the science behind the truth of things like abortion, contraceptives,  and end of life care. Truth is a conformation of the mind to reality and the truth does not constrain us. The truth will set you free. We were challenged to share the truth that hormonal birth control is abortifacient (meaning it causes abortions), that sterilization surgeries violate our hippocratic oath as they take a working system and breaks it. We were challenged to share that people should not be denied the minimum standard of care no matter how sick, injured or old. Finally we were challenged to see Christ in our patients and to remember "when you do for the least of these you do for me."

3. Challenge: " We live in a time that calls for sentinels and public witness. Every Christian in every era faces the same task. But you and I are responsible for THIS moment. Today. Now. We need to "speak out" not only for religious liberty and the ideals of the nation we love, but for the sacredness of life and the dignity of the human person, in other words, for the truth of what it means to be made int he image and likeness of God."- Archbishop Charles Chaput.

We were reminded of the challenges and called to defend the most vulnerable and pursue the direction of the new evangelization with passion. Dr Dutkowsky reminded us "The ground is never more level than at the foot of the cross. There is no separate cross for Downs Syndrome, Muscular Dystrophy, Cerebral Palsy, ect." We were challenged to protect the weak, the sick, the injured, the least of these. Sister Mary Dreger reminded us "You are to be the model of the Divine Physician, You are to make Jesus known. A medical profession does not contradict the profession of christian." We were pushed to know it won't be easy and could challenge our lives, our comfortability, and our jobs. As our country moves from true religious freedom to merely a freedom of worship we are loosing and the only way to fight this is to work together (Freedom of worship only protects against practices in home and in church. It does not protect against public expression of worship).


The 3 days were incredible and it was amazing to be challenged, and encouraged to uphold the faith in my career as a PA. It can be difficult when you feel you are alone in this work but just from being back to the office one day I can tell those 3 days, even though I haven't had time to process all of it, have changed the way I see patients. I know God is sanctifying me through my profession and growing my faith. He is challenging me. He is growing me and He is asking me to have courage in medicine, grow my conscience and accept the challenge to define my life and my practice by Jesus Christ no matter the cost.

Finally, I was reminded the following:

Hope has two beautiful daughters; their names are Anger and Courage. Anger at the way things are, and Courage to see that they do not remain as they are- St. Augustine

A righteous anger about how life is treated with a lack of respect by a culture that glorifies death. We are reminded not to conform to the pattern of the world and to take courage as we can provide hope. God blessed me today with a patient who told me just that "you gave me hope today" and the words melted my heart challenged me even more to provide the hope of Jesus Christ through love. 

"The Truth of Christ needs not only be understood, articulated and defended but to be proposed joyfully and confidently." - Pope Benedict XVI. 

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Sunday, September 21, 2014

It is NOT the Bible or Tradition it is BOTH.


Hello friends!

It's been a busy several weeks but I've missed writing and sharing.
Yesterday was the first saturday of a saturday morning bible study at my house. It's an varied group of some catholics, some protestants, some non-church attenders. Some are mothers of children, others are mothers for 4 legged fur babies. Some are married, some are single. All are beautiful women who God loves.

Why? Because ladies need to get together and talk and pray and share our joy and burdens with one another. We need community and we need the word of God.

Too often I meet people who tell me "I used to be catholic but then I went to/met/talked with ___________ and I started reading the bible and left the church." It amazes me because the very thing that led them away from the church, led me to the Church.  Similarly I meet protestants who say "I don't want to be catholic it's all about the bible not about man made tradition." The bible is a tradition and the tradition of the church is not made by man but by God it is just carried on by men.

My catholic brothers and sisters: PLEASE love the word of God. Please read your bible. After all, that book is a book that your church put together. Thank you for your love of the tradition of the church but please know the bible is part of that tradition.

My protestant brothers and sisters: thank you for your love of the bible, but my dear friends please do not reject the beauty of tradition.


Friends: it is not the bible or tradition: It's Both.

Origen, third century teacher of Alexandria proclaimed "You who are accustomed to attending the divine mysteries know who, when you receive the body of the Lord, you guard it with all care and reverence lest any small part should fall from it, lest any piece of the consecrated gift be lost. For you believe yourself guilty, and rightly so, if anything falls from there through your negligence. But if you are so careful to preserve his body, and rightly so, why do you think that there is any less guilt to have neglected God's word than to have neglected his body?" 

Friends Origen helps us to see that the word of God and communion with God are both Holy. In the bread and in the word there is a real presence of our Lord.

Friends we can not deliver the Gospel, the Good News, if we do not first possess it.

Why is tradition important?
Before the fourth century there is no recorded canon of scripture exactly with the same list of books found in Christian bibles today. Before then there were letters that circulated from the apostles and by and large they agreed on the four gospels, some of Paul's letters but things written by Peter, James, John the letter of Hebrews, Revelation, all of these were debated. Moreover, first century letters from Barnabas and Clement were considered inspired by some churches and not others. For these early christians they had to rely on tradition. 2 Thessalonians 2:15 "Therefore brothers stand firm and hold fast to the traditions that you were taught, either by an oral statement or by a letter of ours." 

When the final canon or list of books was agreed upon, there was no printing press and thus scribes had to spend hours copying pages. Just one copy of the bible took months and was quite costly. Literacy levels were low. These letters belong to the Catholic Church and were shared during mass. When the printing press was finally available it was so expensive to print that the average family couldn't afford the bible but they could read it at the local church (if they could read). Our world today of the bible being everywhere makes this hard to think of but if you were a christian before the bible all you had was tradition. Remember no where in the bible does it say 100% of what you believe must come from the bible. All we believe as Christians must align with the bible and not be contradicted by the bible but there is so much to know. The bible is part of the tradition of the Catholic Church.

Why is the Bible Important?

It is the inspired word of God that tells one continuous story over 1500 years, over 40 generations with over 40 different human authors with a variety of backgrounds (kings, poets, scholars, peasants, prophets, and prisoners) and from many different places (wilderness, prison, hillside, traveling), covering multiple continents and in 3 different languages (hebrew, aramaic and greek). God's word is living and active and it's also a beautiful snapshot of history.

The liturgy of the Eucharist is understood through the study of scripture and the mass is made up of the reading of scripture. When we hear the priest say "Behold the Lamb of God, Behold Him who takes away the sins of the world. Blessed are those who are called to the supper of the Lamb" we hear a fulfillment of the old covenant and the promise of the new. It is through the study of scripture we learn about these covenants, about the savior of the world, about the call to be a disciple, to study, and an apostle, to be sent. It's only through both tradition and scripture that we can understand more about our loving God who gave us so much rich beauty.

In the Catholic Church we read almost the whole bible every 3 years during mass. A new testament, Old Testament, Psalm and Gospel reading is part of our literature and our sermons (homilies) are much shorter. We stand with the reading of the gospel as we are being commissioned to go out and spread the gospel to the ends of the earth. We stand ready as a reminder of this. Every catholic church is reading the same scriptures each day as the rest of the world. For instance the scriptures I heard in mass today are the same that will be read all over today. This is helpful if you are on vacation or visiting a church you aren't missing what your church is doing as we are all one church. The homily will be different in each mass but it's aim is to remind you of how to apply the scriptures that are read.

In the Protestant churches, most use scripture as a part of each sermon/message given. Churches vary on how they do this and what's said in one church is not what is talked about in the next. Many times it is up to the Pastor, speaker or Elder what is spoken on.

No matter where you go to church they want you to have a personal relationship with Christ. (note: I did not say private, we are all the body of Christ and to be in community).  Many will say that they don't like religion and they believe only in a relationship but that's an oxymoron. Religion come from "religare" the latin word which means relationship (to tie or bind together). We all believe that a relationship is key, and that to blindly go through the motions is not what it is about. Let's stop fighting against each other and start understanding that we are after the same thing: to worship God and to know Him.  We can grow in our relationship both through scripture and tradition. They are our guideposts.

Friends I did not forsake my love of God's word for the my love of tradition when I became Catholic. I took my love of Gods word with me and it grew with the addition of tradition and history.

 It is NOT the bible OR tradition it is BOTH.






Wednesday, June 4, 2014

Is the Eucharist Scriptural or Just a Tradition?

Since I posted my conversion story (here) and since I started telling people I was becoming Catholic, I've been asked many times questions that involve the same topic:
Why? What's the difference? How did you have your first communion when you became Catholic when you grew up baptist? What's the biggest difference between Catholics and Protestants? What is the Eucharist? How did you come to believe Jesus was really present in the Eucharist?

Those questions are a small sample of what I've been asked...but probably the most important question has been: Where is scripture does it say Jesus is present in the Eucharist? This was my question. I didn't care if 2000 years of tradition said it was Jesus, I came from a Protestant church and it had to be in the bible for me to believe it. Now I know the church came before the bible, the church put together the bible and determined what letters were inspired and what weren't but at the time of me studying about the Eucharist the bible was the only authority I would submit to and the bible led me to believe the tradition and the Church. (Note 1 Timothy 3:15 claims that the Church is the foundation and pillar of Truth, the bible never claims to be the authority but the Catholic Church does not teach anything contrary to scripture. )

So to understand we would have to go back to some of my first mass experiences. I had agreed to go to mass, because at the time I felt that the protestant church I couldn't go to - they didn't stand up for the unborn, they can't agree on doctrines and they are all founded on the bible and led by the Holy Spirit but going in different directions. I love my protestant friends and I wanted to go to protestant churches just to be with them but if I was to be obedient to where God was leading me I would have to at least consider the Catholic church. That to be said- I was determined to find something wrong with the Catholic Church....so I was considering it with a bias. If I could find something wrong well then at least I could go anywhere because they were all wrong.

Many things aren't divisive in the catholic church. They believe in Jesus, they care for the poor, the believe in charity, they have a hierarchy but so do many churches, they love babies, they believe in eternal life.... none of this was that crazy or outside of what I believed just maybe they explained some of it a little more. What I couldn't understand was the Eucharist. My husband told me "It remakes present the sacrifice of Christ." to which I heard "They are re-sacrificing Jesus?!?!! Don't they know Hebrews says that His sacrifice was once and for all. Heretics." ...And I was ready to leave it at that. See I didn't actually want to know the truth I wanted to believe what I wanted to believe. But the more I prayed the more I felt God really challenging me at least to know why I don't believe the Eucharist. So I began researching it and reading whatever I could.

I did a post a while ago on the historical writings about the Eucharist. Here. 

I want to go through Scriptural support in this post. Brace yourself. I'll try and be concise but it might be long.

1 Corinthians 10:16 The cup of blessing which we bless, is it not a communion in the blood of Christ? The bread which we break is it not a communion in the body of Christ? 

This verse baffled me. Paul writes that it is a communion which means coming together to 1. He didn't write that we are in communion with each other when we do it, nor did he write that when we do it to call it communion. He said is it not a communion in the blood of Christ? Is it not a communion in the body of Christ? He says this as if it were obvious. Remember the new testament was written for Christians.

1 Corinthians 5:7-8 Christ our Passover lamb has been sacrificed. Therefore let us keep the feast! 

Here Paul recounts that Christ is our Passover lamb but what does that even mean? If we look back in scripture to Exodus we see the Passover instituted:


The Passover Ritual Prescribed.

1The LORD said to Moses and Aaron in the land of Egypt:2 This month will stand at the head of your calendar; you will reckon it the first month of the year.3 Tell the whole community of Israel: On the tenth of this month every family must procure for itself a lamb, one apiece for each household.4 If a household is too small for a lamb, it along with its nearest neighbor will procure one, and apportion the lamb’s cost in proportion to the number of persons, according to what each household consumes.5Your lamb must be a year-old male and without blemish. You may take it from either the sheep or the goats.6You will keep it until the fourteenth day of this month, and then, with the whole community of Israel assembled, it will be slaughtered during the evening twilight.7 They will take some of its blood and apply it to the two doorposts and the lintel of the houses in which they eat it.8They will consume its meat that same night, eating it roasted with unleavened bread and bitter herbs.9Do not eat any of it raw or even boiled in water, but roasted, with its head and shanks and inner organs.10You must not keep any of it beyond the morning; whatever is left over in the morning must be burned up.

11This is how you are to eat it: with your loins girt, sandals on your feet and your staff in hand, you will eat it in a hurry. It is the LORD’s Passover.12 For on this same night I will go through Egypt, striking down every firstborn in the land, human being and beast alike, and executing judgment on all the gods of Egypt—I, the LORD!13 But for you the blood will mark the houses where you are. Seeing the blood, I will pass over you; thereby, when I strike the land of Egypt, no destructive blow will come upon you

14This day will be a day of remembrance for you, which your future generations will celebrate with pilgrimage to the LORD; you will celebrate it as a statute forever.15For seven days you must eat unleavened bread. From the very first day you will have your houses clear of all leaven. For whoever eats leavened bread from the first day to the seventh will be cut off from Israel.16On the first day you will hold a sacred assembly, and likewise on the seventh. On these days no sort of work shall be done, except to prepare the food that everyone needs.17Keep, then, the custom of the unleavened bread, since it was on this very day that I brought your armies out of the land of Egypt. You must observe this day throughout your generations as a statute forever.18From the evening of the fourteenth day of the first month until the evening of the twenty-first day of this month you will eat unleavened bread.19For seven days no leaven may be found in your houses; for anyone, a resident alien or a native, who eats leavened food will be cut off from the community of Israel.20You shall eat nothing leavened; wherever you dwell you may eat only unleavened bread.

Promulgation of the Passover.
21 Moses summoned all the elders of Israel and said to them, “Go and procure lambs for your families, and slaughter the Passover victims.22 Then take a bunch of hyssop, and dipping it in the blood that is in the basin, apply some of this blood to the lintel and the two doorposts. And none of you shall go outdoors until morning.23For when the LORD goes by to strike down the Egyptians, seeing the blood on the lintel and the two doorposts, the LORD will pass over that door and not let the destroyer come into your houses to strike you down.

24“You will keep this practice forever as a statute for yourselves and your descendants.25Thus, when you have entered the land which the LORD will give you as he promised, you must observe this rite.26 When your children ask you, ‘What does this rite of yours mean?’27you will reply, ‘It is the Passover sacrifice for the LORD, who passed over the houses of the Israelites in Egypt; when he struck down the Egyptians, he delivered our houses.’” Then the people knelt and bowed down,28and the Israelites went and did exactly as the LORD had commanded Moses and Aaron.

So some important things to point out: 

1. A lamb without blemish was to be sacrificed. 1 Peter 1:19 " but with the precious blood of Christ, a lamb without blemish or defect."
2. They were to paint the doorposts ( note growing up all I remember learning about was this part...not number 3). Ephesians 1:7 In him we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of our trespasses, according to the riches of his grace-
3.They were to eat the lamb and God spent a lot of time explaining how and where and to eat it. 1 Corinthians 5:7-8 Christ our Passover lamb has been sacrificed. Therefore let us keep the feast! 
4. This day will be a remembrance - 1 Corinthians 23:26 23 For I received from the Lord what I also delivered to you, that the Lord Jesus on the night when he was betrayed took bread, 24 and when he had given thanks, he broke it, and said, “This is my body which is for  you. Do this in remembrance of me.” 25 In the same way also the cup, after supper, saying, “This cup is the new covenant in my blood. Do this, as often as you drink it, in remembrance of me.” 26 For as often as you eat this bread and drink the cup, you proclaim the Lord’s death until he comes.

Now I would have given you 1, 2, and 4 as a protestant but number 3 I would have said... well thats just crazy until I read what Paul said in Corinthians in the aforementioned verses. This wasn't enough to convince me though. 

In the old testament I found: 


Leviticus 7:15: The meat of the thanksgiving communion sacrifice shall be eaten on the day it is offered; none of it may be kept until morning. 
- According to levitical law Aaronic sacrifices had to be eaten to bring you in to full communion with God. Christ is our sacrifice.
Nehemiah 9:15- 15 For their hunger you gave them bread from heaven, and for their thirst you brought water for them out of the rock, and you told them to go in to possess the land that you swore to give them. - God provided for them bread from Heaven. - Jesus is the bread of heaven (john 6)
Psalm 78:24-25 24 he rained down on them manna to eat, and gave them the grain of heaven. 25 Mortals ate of the bread of angels; he sent them food in abundance.- Jesus is the bread of Heaven (john 6).
Ezekiel 2:8-10; 3:1-3 8 But you, mortal, hear what I say to you; do not be rebellious like that rebellious house; open your mouth and eat what I give you. 9 I looked, and a hand was stretched out to me, and a written scroll was in it. 10 He spread it before me; it had writing on the front and on the back, and written on it were words of lamentation and mourning and woe.; 3 He said to me, O mortal, eat what is offered to you; eat this scroll, and go, speak to the house of Israel. 2 So I opened my mouth, and he gave me the scroll to eat. 3 He said to me, Mortal, eat this scroll that I give you and fill your stomach with it. Then I ate it; and in my mouth it was as sweet as honey. - Ezekiel was to eat the word of God which in John 1:1 we see Jesus is the Word of God.

and several more. Honestly if I listed all the eucharistic foreshadowing the post would be infinitely long.

To go through all the scripture of the new testament... I'd have to write out almost the whole new testament but I think it can be summarized into John 6 and then explaining some of the misnomers about John 6:


The Bread from Heaven

22 The next day the crowd that had stayed on the other side of the lake saw that there had been only one boat there. They also saw that Jesus had not got into the boat with his disciples, but that his disciples had gone away alone. 23 Then some boats from Tiberias came near the place where they had eaten the bread after the Lord had given thanks.24 So when the crowd saw that neither Jesus nor his disciples were there, they themselves got into the boats and went to Capernaum looking for Jesus.

25 When they found him on the other side of the lake, they said to him, ‘Rabbi, when did you come here?’ 26 Jesus answered them, ‘Very truly, I tell you, you are looking for me, not because you saw signs, but because you ate your fill of the loaves. 27 Do not work for the food that perishes, but for the food that endures for eternal life, which the Son of Man will give you. For it is on him that God the Father has set his seal.’ 28 Then they said to him, ‘What must we do to perform the works of God?’ 29 Jesus answered them, ‘This is the work of God, that you believe in him whom he has sent.’ 30 So they said to him, ‘What sign are you going to give us then, so that we may see it and believe you? What work are you performing? 31 Our ancestors ate the manna in the wilderness; as it is written, “He gave them bread from heaven to eat.”’ 32 Then Jesus said to them, ‘Very truly, I tell you, it was not Moses who gave you the bread from heaven, but it is my Father who gives you the true bread from heaven. 33 For the bread of God is that which comes down from heaven and gives life to the world.’ 34 They said to him, ‘Sir, give us this bread always.’

35 Jesus said to them, ‘I am the bread of life. Whoever comes to me will never be hungry, and whoever believes in me will never be thirsty. 36 But I said to you that you have seen me and yet do not believe. 37 Everything that the Father gives me will come to me, and anyone who comes to me I will never drive away; 38 for I have come down from heaven, not to do my own will, but the will of him who sent me. 39 And this is the will of him who sent me, that I should lose nothing of all that he has given me, but raise it up on the last day. 40 This is indeed the will of my Father, that all who see the Son and believe in him may have eternal life; and I will raise them up on the last day.’

41 Then the Jews began to complain about him because he said, ‘I am the bread that came down from heaven.’ 42 They were saying, ‘Is not this Jesus, the son of Joseph, whose father and mother we know? How can he now say, “I have come down from heaven”?’ 43 Jesus answered them, ‘Do not complain among yourselves. 44 No one can come to me unless drawn by the Father who sent me; and I will raise that person up on the last day. 45 It is written in the prophets, “And they shall all be taught by God.” Everyone who has heard and learned from the Father comes to me. 46 Not that anyone has seen the Father except the one who is from God; he has seen the Father. 47 Very truly, I tell you, whoever believes has eternal life. 48 I am the bread of life. 49 Your ancestors ate the manna in the wilderness, and they died. 50 This is the bread that comes down from heaven, so that one may eat of it and not die. 51 I am the living bread that came down from heaven. Whoever eats of this bread will live for ever; and the bread that I will give for the life of the world is my flesh.’

52 The Jews then disputed among themselves, saying, ‘How can this man give us his flesh to eat?’ 53 So Jesus said to them, ‘Very truly, I tell you, unless you eat the flesh of the Son of Man and drink his blood, you have no life in you. 54 Those who eat my flesh and drink my blood have eternal life, and I will raise them up on the last day; 55 for my flesh is true food and my blood is true drink. 56 Those who eat my flesh and drink my blood abide in me, and I in them. 57 Just as the living Father sent me, and I live because of the Father, so whoever eats me will live because of me. 58 This is the bread that came down from heaven, not like that which your ancestors ate, and they died. But the one who eats this bread will live for ever.’ 59 He said these things while he was teaching in the synagogue at Capernaum.

The Words of Eternal Life

60 When many of his disciples heard it, they said, ‘This teaching is difficult; who can accept it?’ 61 But Jesus, being aware that his disciples were complaining about it, said to them, ‘Does this offend you? 62 Then what if you were to see the Son of Man ascending to where he was before? 63 It is the spirit that gives life; the flesh is useless. The words that I have spoken to you are spirit and life. 64 But among you there are some who do not believe.’ For Jesus knew from the first who were the ones that did not believe, and who was the one that would betray him. 65 And he said, ‘For this reason I have told you that no one can come to me unless it is granted by the Father.’
66 Because of this many of his disciples turned back and no longer went about with him.67 So Jesus asked the twelve, ‘Do you also wish to go away?’ 68 Simon Peter answered him, ‘Lord, to whom can we go? You have the words of eternal life. 69 We have come to believe and know that you are the Holy One of God.70 Jesus answered them, ‘Did I not choose you, the twelve? Yet one of you is a devil.’ 71 He was speaking of Judas son of Simon Iscariot,[i] for he, though one of the twelve, was going to betray him.

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Now let me say right now I could do an entire post on just John 6 and one day I might, but it was reading and praying over this passage that led me to all the other verses. It was asking God to show me what this meant. God taught me a lot and I'll make some quick points about it.

1. Manna is the prefiguring of Christ in the Eucharist. 
Manna is the bread of heaven, the bread of angels and in Jewish tradition it was rained down from heaven from the heavenly temple to the ground.  (Exodus 16 describes this) This bread fed the Israelites as they wandered in the dessert for 40 years and was so special to them they kept it in the tabernacle.  Manna actually comes from the word " man hu" meaning "what is it?".  It was a miraculous bread from heaven that they couldn't explain. It was a miracle. Remember back in Psalm 78 God commanded the doors of heaven to open and he gave the bread of angels.  This manna was so special they kept it in the tabernacle with the 10 commandments and the Rod of Aaron. The Jews had obligation to see the face of God and they fulfilled this by lifting the Manna up on a table and visiting the bread of Heaven. As I learned more I realized how close this is to the Eucharist, where catholics each day go and visit Christ in the Eucharist in adoration and consume Him at mass. It was amazing to me how Jesus fulfilled the promise of the Manna in the old testament and then met the Jews requests John 6:31-34 "31 Our ancestors ate the manna in the wilderness; as it is written, “He gave them bread from heaven to eat.”’ 32 Then Jesus said to them, ‘Very truly, I tell you, it was not Moses who gave you the bread from heaven, but it is my Father who gives you the true bread from heaven. 33 For the bread of God is that which comes down from heaven and gives life to the world.’ 34 They said to him, ‘Sir, give us this bread always.’"

2. Jesus was very clear He was not speaking symbolically. If you read the first 5 chapters of John each time Jesus says something that people don't understand and they misquote, misunderstand or misspeak He corrects them. In John 6 however, Jesus doesn't leave any room for interpretation:

48 I am the bread of life. 49 Your ancestors ate the manna in the wilderness, and they died. 50 This is the bread that comes down from heaven, so that one may eat of it and not die. 51 I am the living bread that came down from heaven. Whoever eats of this bread will live for ever; and the bread that I will give for the life of the world is my flesh.’52 The Jews then disputed among themselves, saying, ‘How can this man give us his flesh to eat?’ 53 So Jesus said to them, ‘Very truly, I tell you, unless you eat the flesh of the Son of Man and drink his blood, you have no life in you. 54 Those who eat my flesh and drink my blood have eternal life, and I will raise them up on the last day; 55 for my flesh is true food and my blood is true drink. 56 Those who eat my flesh and drink my blood abide in me, and I in them. 57 Just as the living Father sent me, and I live because of the Father, so whoever eats me will live because of me. 58 This is the bread that came down from heaven, not like that which your ancestors ate, and they died. But the one who eats this bread will live for ever.’

Verse 55 tore my heart and soul apart" For my flesh is true food and my blood is true drink." I couldn't find anyway to twist that into "symbolic" or "possibly not true." But it was my next point that I think really drove home the point.

3. Jesus again, was very clear. John 6:60-69:

60 When many of his disciples heard it, they said, ‘This teaching is difficult; who can accept it?’ 61 But Jesus, being aware that his disciples were complaining about it, said to them, ‘Does this offend you? 62 Then what if you were to see the Son of Man ascending to where he was before? 63 It is the spirit that gives life; the flesh is useless. The words that I have spoken to you are spirit and life. 64 But among you there are some who do not believe.’ For Jesus knew from the first who were the ones that did not believe, and who was the one that would betray him. 65 And he said, ‘For this reason I have told you that no one can come to me unless it is granted by the Father.’
66 Because of this many of his disciples turned back and no longer went about with him.67 So Jesus asked the twelve, ‘Do you also wish to go away?’ 68 Simon Peter answered him, ‘Lord, to whom can we go? You have the words of eternal life. 69 We have come to believe and know that you are the Holy One of God.

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So Just as in the first 5 chapters of John there is a clarification asked for "This teaching is difficult; who can accept it?" Can you imagine? Your Jewish and Jesus just told you to eat His flesh and His blood. You know you can't drink blood thats against the law, and eat His flesh? He must be crazy or He must be establishing a new covenant. He doesn't even say "Yea thats what I meant I'll give you time to soak it in. He's bold He says "Does this offend you? Then what if you were to see the Son of Man ascending to where he was before?" And we know He does ascend (see Acts 1:6-12). It's amazing how He responded and it changes everything. He didn't correct himself. He didn't say it was a symbol. In fact He says "The words that I have spoken to you are spirit and life." No where in the bible is the

Spirit symbolic. The people knew He wasn't joking or lying or speaking in code because what did they do ? They turned their backs and no longer went about with Him. They left Him! So He turned to the 12 and said "Do you wish to go away?" It's as if He was challenging them: you leaving too? I'm not backing down on this one. But Peter beautifully says "lord to whom can we go? you have the words of eternal life. We have come to believe and know you are the Holy One of God."


It's only possible for Christ to be present in the Eucharist through God. Through a miracle. If he wasn't God it would just be bread and wine. But God can do anything including turn bread and wine into the body and blood of Christ and He does each day in the Catholic church.

4. Jesus taught them to pray for this:

Matthew 6:9-13
‘Pray then in this way:
Our Father in heaven,
hallowed be your name.
10 Your kingdom come.
Your will be done,
on earth as it is in heaven.
11 Give us this day our daily bread.
12 And forgive us our trespasses
as we forgive those who trespass against us
13 And lead us not to temptation but deliver us from evil

Give us this day our daily bread. What does that mean? Am I asking for the steak I hope to have for dinner? Am I asking for the cheerios that I had this morning? Am I asking just that God would provide food and drink in the midst of praying for so many spiritual matters?

1. Gods will
2. FOOD?
3. Forgiveness
4 Grace
5 Protection from sin
6. Protection from Satan.

For me number 2 in this list just never seemed to add up. The word in the greek for daily is epiousios. Epi means on or above. Ousia means "being substance or nature" So Epiousios is most closely : Supernatural or Supersubstantial.

This isn't a new idea of this either. For example:

Saint Cyril, bishop of Jerusalem (313-386) wrote " Common bread is not super substantial, but this Holy Bread is supersubstancial"

So how much more does this list fit for what we pray for?

1. God's Will
2. Christ's presence.
3. forgiveness
4. grace
5 protection from Sin
6. protection from Satan

For me there was no denying this. I couldn't twist my way out of it. I couldn't find one verse that said "Communion is symbolic," or even one word that I could take out of context to say that.

I'm sure there will be a lot of comments but the ones I've come across in conversation:
1. "Isn't Jesus speaking about Him Spiritually being in Eucharist not Physically?

Paul wrote: 1 Corinthians 10:16: The cup of blessing which we bless, is it not a communion in the blood of Christ? The bread which we break is it not a communion in the body of Christ?

2. "Jesus says He is a lot of things: a door, a vine, ect. So how do you know He's being literal?" 

As I spoke above He is pretty clear in John 6 that He is literal, but we can see that He is not literal in the various other places He calls himself a door or a vine.

in John 15 He calls himself the Vine. No one asks Him if He is literally the vine as they do in John 6.
In John 10 He calls himself the door but again no one asks Him if He is literally the door as they do in John 6.

They know He isn't kidding or speaking metaphorically in John 6 and they quiz Him on it, they walk away from Him because He is serious.

The most important thing is to remember Luke 1:37: For with God Nothing is Impossible
God definitely has the power to do this miracle and it is so beautiful.

3. "You believe in re-sacrificing Jesus? don't you know He was sacrificed once for the forgiveness of sins"

This was a struggle for me. Hebrews is clear the sacrifice is complete, and catholics would agree. The mass however is a sacrifice in that it remakes present that sacrifice, meaning we have the presence of the sacrificed lamb through a miracle of the Holy Spirit. Now remember the jews were to put the blood of the lamb on the doorposts and eat the lamb. The mass is called an "unbloody" sacrifice meaning we aren't re-killing Jesus. That's what it means when the Catechism says "the sacrifice of Christ and the sacrifice of the Eucharist are one single sacrifice." That's also why the Eucharist is termed the "unbloody Sacrifice," because the bloodshed was in the slaying of the Lamb, not the eating. In the Eucharist the Church is as it were at the foot of the cross with Mary, united with the offering and intercession of Christ. Catechism-1370. Catholics are not repeating the sacrifice of Christ but rather celebrating that He offers Himself on our behalf for eternity to the Father. It is because the death of the lamb was sufficient that we celebrate the Eucharist.

Protestant early church historian J.N.D Kelly writes that in the early church "the Eucharist was regarded as the distinctively Christian sacrifice...Malachi's prediction (1:10-11) that the Lord would reject Jewish sacrifices and instead would have a "pure offering" made to him by the Gentiles in every place was seized upon by Christians as a prophecy of the Eucharist. Didache indeed actually applies the term thusia, or sacrifice to the Eucharist... It was natural for early Christians to think of the Eucharist as a sacrifice. The fulfillment of prophecy demanded a solemn Christian offering, and the rite itself was wrapped in the sacrificial atmosphere with which our Lord invested the Last Supper. The words of institution "Do this" (touto poieiete), must have been charged with sacrificial overtones for second-century ears; Justin at any rate understood them to mean "Offer this"... The bread and wine moreover are offered "for a memorial (eis anamnasin)of the passion." a phrase which in view of his identification of them with the Lord's body and blood implies much more than an act of purely spiritual recollection (Early Christian Doctrines 196-97)

When I was part of various parts of the protestant church I could never understand how Jesus was to be everything for me. I could understand how He could fulfill me spiritually but being such physical people there was no physical way to connect with Christ. Now that I'm Catholic, I can physically encounter Christ through the Eucharist. Christ promises to never leave us, to be with us to the end of the age and He is, both Physically in the Eucharist and Spiritually. How beautiful. It's a miracle that it turns in to the true flesh and true blood of our Lord Jesus Christ through a miracle of the Holy Spirit.

In the Eucharist is contained His body,blood, soul and divinity and it's to that Catholic kneel, bow, and genuflect.






I know this is a lot to take in and you might have questions. Don't hesitate to comment or e-mail me at beautifulgoodtrue@gmail.com


God bless you.
Love,
Anita





Wednesday, May 28, 2014

I was Married, Confirmed and had my 1st Communion all on the same day.

On May 17th 2014 I had one of the biggest days of my life. 
At 3 PM Paul and I had our marriage concelebrated in the catholic church.
At 430 I was Confirmed and brought into full communion.
3 sacraments. 1 day. An amazing day of graces. 

But had you told me even a year ago that this is what I would be doing with my Saturday...I wouldn't have believed you. If you told me you did these things a year ago I would have not understood why in the world you would consider that an important day as joining a new church for me consisted of simply walking in and saying hello. As a protestant I never, ever wanted to be catholic. If you haven't read about how I got here please do so here.

This day came after lots of tears, lots of challenges, lots of heartache. It came after lots of learning, lots of growing and lots of steps of faith. I won't go into the details of this at this time, nor am I going to go into what went in to getting to each part of the day in this post. 

Paul and I got there about 245 pm. We walked into the chapel to meet Father Richard. He prayed and blessed our marriage, our wedding rings and thanked us for bringing our marriage to the church. His words recognized that we had been married and didn't say we hadn't but affirmed that our marriage was not just between us and God but to be brought to the church. 



Then I had to go and meet with Bishop Noonan and acknowledge that I believed in the doctrines of the Catholic Church and in what it is that the Eucharist is. I do. 









We then processed into the church, sat with our sponsors and awaited to be confirmed. Bishop Noonan spoke :  He gave a beautiful homily that I would have agreed with before I was ever Catholic and it reminded me so much more how my faith has not changed but grown, expanded. 

And then we were called up and anointed. The bishop traced a cross on our foreheads with this wonderful smelling balm. It was a moment of beauty and peace and grace, preparing me for the gift of the Eucharist. 





We sat, and the liturgy of the Eucharist  began. As I walked forward my mind and heart was flooded with emotion. I was about to encounter Christ physically. When I was part of various parts of the protestant church I could never understand how Jesus was to be everything for me. I could understand how He could fulfill me spiritually but being such physical people there was no physical way to connect with Christ. Now that I'm Catholic, I can physically encounter Christ through the Eucharist. The words to describe what it felt like are hard to come up with. A warmth and a joy filled my heart that could have knocked me over. All in a moment I felt full of His love. It made real in my heart just what His sacrifice for me was and how amazing it is that He loved me that much. His promise to be with me to the end of the age and to never leave me for forsake me suddenly had weight in my soul. I was mixed with tears of joy and sorrow. Joy to encounter Christ and sorrow for how sinful I am and how unworthy I am for such a gift. I looked back at my husband and saw his eyes welled with tears as if he could feel it all too from his seat. I watched him go up and rejoin the church, taking the Eucharist for the first time and saw his face as he was overwhelmed by the same flood of grace. I finally understood why the mass was focused on this moment. I finally could attest that it's NOT just a cracker and wine. I could finally confess that communion in the protestant church had never been so radical on my heart, even though it had met so much. It stretched my heart all in a moment to overflow and it's a feeling that hasn't shaken each time I've gotten to participate in the Eucharist since (9 times over the course of my vacation, as I went to daily mass).  I wish the words I've drafted could really paint the picture for you but I don't feel they do it justice. All in a moment it's like a ton of bricks hits your heart and yet you feel the arms of Christ wrapped around you. This gift is blessed. This truly is a sacrament of grace. This truly is Christ: body, soul and divinity. 


 A final picture with the bishop, and I was off to thank my family and friends for being there, knowing that many of them observing could only speculate in part as to what the Eucharist might be, but praying they would one day experience the joy and grace of this gift.



My sweet friends were there to celebrate with me and some graciously opened their home to celebrate this occasion. So thankful to celebrate this time with loved ones. (I didn't get pictures with everyone so I'll leave out pictures with friends so not to leave anyone out.)  So blessed to be part of the One, Holy, Catholic and Apostolic Church.



What was your confirmation like? Have you been confirmed? Ever thought about being catholic? Ever wondered what the Eucharist is? Have questions? Don't hesitate to e-mail me or comment: beautifulgoodtrue@gmail.com

<3
Anita